A smile that is worth all the fortune in the world

What is worth more than your own happiness? It is a very hard question to some, but to me it’s plain simple. To make my loved one happy. To see her cute smile. To see her face beaming with pleasure. To see her jumping up and down with excitement. Certainly worth all the fortune and treasures in the world.

And yesterday was one of the days (hopefully it is not just yesterday that she is happy, but yesterday was one of the epitome of her happiness, where she now can cross out one item on her life’s to do list)

Yesterday was the day she met Mr. Swift. The handsome silver Mr. Swift. (bye bye Black Night)



Enjoy your new ride baby!

HPS?

it is anyone’s dream to be considered by our bosses to have the exceptional talent to come the CEO one day. Well, they have this program called HPS (high performance staff, duh~) where on selected few will have to opportunity to be enrolled in this group. Obviously it is based on the performance, but what is not so obvious is how these people are selected, the criteria of which is judged during what is called the development workshop interview

recently I’ve chatted with some who failed the interview (by failed, I mean that did not manage to be enlisted in the program) and here are some of our conclusion

Empathy, or having too much of it. This is one of the most common comment to those rejected. Apparently if you are a high-flyer, you cannot have much of this trait. What is empathy? Why is it so not needed in the ‘listed criteria’?

This is from www.wisegeek.com

Empathy is a feeling different from sympathy. When one is sympathetic, one implies pity but maintains distance from another person’s feelings. Empathy is more a sense that one can truly understand or imagine the depth of another person’s feelings. It implies feeling with a person, rather than feeling sorry for a person.

Empathy is a translation of the German term Einfühlung, meaning to feel as one with. It implies sharing the load, or “walking a mile in someone else’s shoes,” in order to appropriately understand that person’s perspective.

So what’s so bad of having a lot of empathy?

At large, having empathy is an essential trait of a leader. But having too much of it means that when it comes to difficult decisions, especially when it comes to matters concerning business decisions vs. staff related issues, those with high empathy would normally find it hard to make the necessary difficult choice.

But having less empathy means caring less about people. It means that you have to be cold. You have to be blunt. You have to be direct. At what ever cost. And this is the trait of people that is inducted into the program. All ‘macam bagus’ people. I’m correct and you are wrong type of guy. (we all agree that everyone inducted into the program has this trait that can be seen by the naked eyes)

The bigger question is do I have to sell my soul (by that I mean changing the caring and empathetic person I am) to be amongst the elite? Or alternatively (I always believe that there are alternatives, no matter in what kind of situation you are in) am I able to portray that I’m cold when I’m not to the interviewers? (which during my session are 3 makciks). i don’t think that’s too hard to do..

i'll be your 'lelaki'..

I never understand before why my girlfriend loved this song so much… the singer looked so gay, but his voice was pretty okay. (I should say really good if compared to mine, but obviously it is not an apple to apple comparison (the way all bosses always say, duh~) . The song was never a chart topper not did it won any awards.

Until I tried to learn how to sing it (as I wanted to sing to her her favorite song) and really comprehend the lyrics..

it describes about the perfect guy that any girl would want. Someone who trusted and loved you no matter what.. one who only have you in his heart, and will look to no other..

someone who worships you, treats you like an angle with love that will never fades..

Sayang, I’ll be that guy..

 

Kasih

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Kasih

Apakah dirimu

Merasakan semua itu

Ke manapun hendakku pergi

Ku masih melihat bayanganmu cintaku

Dan ke manapun arah

Angin ku berlari

Hati ini masih kau miliki

 

Lelaki ini

Yang selalu mencintamu

Selalu tanpa ragu

Lelaki ini

Yang selalu memuja

Hanya dirimu

Yang bertahta dalam sanubariku

Sanubariku ooo...

Aku yang mencinta kamu

Hanya dirimu

Oh...

Kerana cintaku

Tak berbatas waktuku

Kerana cintaku

Tak mengenal jemu hatimu

Hatimu oo...

Yang bertahta dalam sanubariku

i'm so in love...

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Dear Bubu Momo,

Ive got your emails and the artworks you did. I must say, Im definitely impressed- you indeed are truly and artist, and a good-looking one too as a matter of fact *wink*

Momo,

Since I have been at home these past two days, I have thought a lot about us. About what we have gone through these past 8 years and all the things that we shared. Through thick and thin, we have been together and I didnt get to thank you for sticking by me, despite the occassional PMS attacks and the recent episode which was a fair test of our relationship
:( I have to admit I might have not been actually perfect girlfriend (I'm sorry I can be a monster when I'm sleepy and that sometimes I can be a real spoilt brat. But I'm yours. Your very own spoilt brat and no one can ever take me away from you.)

Sometimes I wonder, what did I ever do to deserve such a loving, perfect bf-fiance and soon to be hubby? I thought, perhaps it has been fate that brought us together, no matter what obstacles that may come to try and divide us. Please know that my heart is forever yours, no matter what.

I may not be good in expressing my feelings in real life (sebab malu orang geli or whatever) but I think you know how I feel for you. You're the only love of my life, the first and the last man that I will ever give my heart to.

I am sorry I may have put you in an uncomfortable position (due to my lack of judgment and refusal to acknowledge that some ppl are plain bad news). And I am now keen to make it up to you. I want you to know that from the very start, you have always been the one for me. Like how Edward was for Bella.

I hope with this coming Friday we can get daddy to give us his blessing (doa: after all the hardwork and practice!) . I'll pray that next year we will be LEGALLY a couple.

And only then would I get to go around telling all my frens to call me Mrs Adli Bubu Momo Pipi Goyang2! Imagine how cute our babies will be, kan :P

Ps: Yes. I'd LOVE to go out with you. (*blush*)

I love you always,

Your Bibi Mei Mei

In Love, Being Loved & Loves

Guess after 8 years, it has never occurred to me that i would be still thinking about the definition of love.

Love.. the one thing that all mankind seek, the only thing that is said cannot be bought, and makes you do strange things, wonderful or dreadful, yet out of the world things that mere mortals cannot comprehend. It makes you happy without any reason; let other things float by unnoticeably, at times ignoring the appalling consequences.

What kind of love do we seek?

Being in love means the mutual love is shared by both.

Being loved is one without you loving back the same way as what they expect of you

Loves is when you loves someone (similar to the above)without the reciprocal feeling

Being in loves means doing things to make the other half happy, intentionally or not, without feeling any burden, just to make the other half smile.. you’d feel the warmth encapsulating your soul just knowing that they are happy, just by looking at the smiles, their laughter, not wanting anything back in return.

Not wanting anything back in return? That’s the thing, the question , because we do want something back. We also wanted to be treated that way. To be made happy. I guess sometimes it is not enough just to give love.. the feeling of being happy of giving is not enough. We also wanted love in return, wanted other to feel happy just by looking at our smile. Wanted them to feel the warmth in their hearts just by looking at our faces. Being in love..

After 8 years, personally, I wanted the love we’d shared to evolve to be more than love. What’s more than love?

The greatest love of all is beyond making the other half feeling happy. The love that inspires us to greater heights. You are inspired to become better in any way possible for love. And that is the love i seek, the one that i have now..

Why I start writing..

I don’t really know if this is a response to something.. Maybe some would think that it is, and maybe they are right. To my defence, I felt that it is time for me to start writing, to tell stories about my life adventures, pen out ideas and thoughts that was only up till now articulated only during my long drives in the dark nights. Well, it is not as though I have to justify what I’m doing for that matter, or the fact that no one would read any of my writings.

Truthfully, I don’t have any friends who blogs, so I don’t have anyone to link my blogs to. I may have some ‘competition’ who has blogs, so linking this blog to theirs would surely be a no-no. This will only serve as my ‘practice ground’ for me to start writing, since after school it was very hard for me to find time (alasan) to write, and I find it very difficult to express my thoughts on paper (lesson learnt during my MBA paper). As the old saying “practice makes perfect” and that is what i’m going to do now.

Another reason is that I seldom read others except FORTUNE and papers, so as what one of mentor commented to me “son, u have to increase your vocab, as the it will mirror how intelligent you are” (although it might not be true, but he has a point. Perception is all about projection, how do you project yourself to others, and how well others perceive you is as good (or as bad) as how you manage to make others believe what you are, hence the importance (truth) of what he said)

So that’s it. This is my first blog entry.